So for my first post I thought I would introduce you to a typical 'me' outfit. I wear a variation of this anywhere and everywhere; a day of lectures at uni, a day out in london, a day running errands - you name the event, and I'll always gravitate towards a turtleneck, skinnies, and a leather jacket. As you'll soon see with my style, I'm not particularly loyal to one aesthetic. I like to look smart, prim and lady-like, but on other occasions, I'm all about the grungy ripped denim and trainers. One way in which I am consistent, however, is in colour palette, I tend to stick to largely neutral tones, and throw in a 'pop of colour' (so cringe and overused, but true), every now and again, some of my favourites being cobalt blue, burgundy, and yellow.
I wore this outfit for a day of running around in London, I wanted to be comfortable, but still look semi put together which I think the sunglasses and jacket achieve, and balance out the casual vans and oversized bag.
Now, how about a story time! I wanted to tell you a bit about my first experience of shooting photos out and about on the busy streets of london, because, boy, was this an ordeal for me. Now being naturally very shy and self conscious, starting a blog was always going to be difficult. I knew that I wanted to do it; I love fashion, art, writing and creating in general, but was just too scared to take the jump. All the usual reasons floated around in my head: "You're not pretty enough to blog, you'll look ridiculous", "No-one will like your content", "this isn't for you, stick to what you're good at". But, in the end, after a copious amount of encouragement from my sister, mum and close friends, I decided I had to take the plunge. I think I'll do a separate blog post on insecurity and taking risks in a "chatty time" sort of post (side note: do you like this idea? let me know?) But I digress, I was going to tell you about this experience.
So I knew straight away that a rural setting or classic suburbia was not the backdrop that I wanted for my outfits, and the only two available to me in my little home town outside of London. I dreamed of shooting against the classic 'pretty white row of houses' in Notting Hill, or more industrial, dark and grungy backstreets.
So, a week or so ago, off we set into London at around 5pm, for us to realise that, it would take far too long to get to south kensington or chelsea in time for us to capture pictures while it was still light. That combined with the fact that it was somewhat out of our way meant that I was left with the option of shooting where we were - real central financial district london. This meant that I was shooting my first ever 'on location' set of photos, in fenchurch street area, at 5pm, aka during rush hour, on a friday. Can you see where this is going? Needless to say my hopes for a quiet secluded street with neutral backdrops were as unrealistic as could be.
I turned to my sister (who takes my blog pictures) and just said 'no way'. lol, but she sternly told me to stop being a baby, and so we walked round the fenchurch area looking for somewhere a little more secluded, eventually finding a little side street that was relatively empty. I pushed my sister to take the photos quickly, as my embarrassment levels were rising by the second. Every time people walked past and I was striking my best poses, I would much too quickly lapse into an 'act natural' pose - I must have looked, at best, rather suspicious, at worst, utterly ridiculous.
The pinnacle moment though, was when three men in suits walk past whilst I was trying to shoot a pose-y close up shot and I looked round, spotted them and kind of hunched in embarrassment. Consequently, they actually proceeded to WALK BACK and peer around the corner when we thought they were gone, to keep watching what I was doing, and I remember thinking to myself in that moment, 'Christ almighty, there is no way I can do this, I'm quitting my blog". lol.
(My 'unamused-at-all-the-passersby-interrupting-my-photo-shoot face haha!)
In the end we got some shots, but in all honesty, I'm kind of disappointed with them. I think this is a combination of factors though, partly due to me feeling uncomfortable I didn't let myself go so I could achieve the shots I wanted to, and secondly, ah my old friend, comparison. I keep expecting my photos to look like the 'pro bloggers' or fresh from a vogue magazine fashion editorial, and I think I need to re-evaluate my standards. Its important to be inspired and have goals, but its also important to keep in mind what you are comparing. There's that saying 'never compare your beginning to somebody else middle or end', and that is so true. I'm not going to quit after five seconds, but instead remember that progress will come in time, hopefully you'll all accompany me on this journey!
Wow, this ended up being a very long winded post! Posts will definitely not usually be this long, I just thought it would be nice for me to chat to you bit, and if there's one thing you should know about me, it's that I do love to talk! Let me know what you think!
Top: Mango (Similar Here)
Jacket: Mango (Similar Here)
Bag: Zara (Similar Here)
Sunglasses: Asos (Similar Here)
What do you guys think of this outfit? Do you find the all black ensemble to be a failsafe?
My next post will be up next week, come back again if you enjoy my posts!
Until next time,